Wish the concept of time would just vanish so that I can escape into a timeless zone for the shortest time, yes even if it's just a spilt second. I have no idea why this is my request., but I really feel like bidding goodbye to everything, abandone everything behind and leave quietly - so quietly not even an ant notice.

Am I tired out, or just a period of bad mood, sianz-ness, or pms-ing? I really have no idea... Maybe too much is happening, or perhaps nothing is happening? Do I like being buried under tonnes of work to applease my restless soul, or does my tired soul need to rest completely?

Maybe you can cheer me up, but you seem too far away. I don't know how to reach out to you, and you don't seem to have a outstretch hand for me to hold.